Friday, April 21, 2017


I maybe bias when i first knew i was pregnant with my first born child. Maybe there's something special having her after gone through abortion at six weeks of pregnancy before her birth. It felt like the whole world fell on me, us actually. It's hard to cope up then and depression hits anytime of the day, and night. Then afterwards when we became ready to have another one it takes too long for me to conceive. Days and months of waiting flew by and there's nothing. The emotion is like a roller coaster then and there are times that it's hard to cope, you will just cry actually and sadness always hits. But i don't want to dwell of being in sorrow for too long and before we knew it, i find ways on how to get it done by the help of a professional. It's a blessing that after two months of treatment i have burst in joy, in tears in front of my ob gyne ( still thankful for her up to now! ) when i knew i was pregnant again. Finally, the wait is over!
What i remember then is i know nothing about mothering and i don't even read books on how to. What i know is that i want to have a child and praying it will be a girl. my husband wanted it too coming from a brood of only one sister. On my part maybe because there's certain bond between me and my mom that fight together to live in this place we called world that's why i look forward and pray to have a daughter as our first. A big blessing that it's an answered prayer.
When you become a mother at a young age ( 21 then ) there's a certain part of routine that it's hard to get through. Yes, emotionally i'm very much prepared. But physically? I don't think so. I appreciate so much that i have my mom at my side then to support me in toting my child. Day to day life becomes easier with her around until i find myself getting ready on the physical mothering chores and became skilled on it as years pass by.
Now my eldest daughter is 22 years old. ( say it in three times!! ) Sometimes i want to pinch myself, is it true? How come? With just a blink of an eye. I maybe stuck so much on teaching and to discipline her ( with the other three ) on the ways and hows of life until i find myself soaking in reflection about her as a full blown woman. And then the truth strikes on me, maybe what i thought on her throughout the years was instill on her now that she can make a decision of her own. To grow and reach her life to the fullest. Maybe just like a kite, when the wind becomes stable that's the time we watch it on how beautiful it dance and flew through the sky, only until the wind blows so hard that we can able to pull the yarn and get it back on track.
Maybe i am in that stage of mothering with this first born child of mine. A new chapter for me and a beginning of life's chapter for her. I can only wish her all the goodness in this life's battle. Hopeful and praying that she will see first and enjoy the beauty of life before settling down.
And you, in what stage of parenting are you at this time? Like me did you became a mom at a young age too? How do you cope on that?

Thursday, April 13, 2017


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I always tell that summer is one of my favorite season aside from Christmastime and i know that my children will nod about it. Though it's really hot during these time of days, and when i say hot it means you can melt a piece of ice cube in just five minutes! It's really sweating hooot and thankful for the one who invented aircondition that calm your nerves for not having a heat stroke. But this is the life and the idea of tropical living during these time. And over all, you dream and plan about outdoor activities, swimming and going to the beach, and the best part is spending quality time with families and love ones.

Planning getaways with the eldest who's now an adult is not as easy as they are five years ago. Little by little they have some sort of plan and beginning to have a life of their own. Still thankful though that we still live in the same roof and have no plan yet of moving. Halleluyah! ( you know what it means to a mama's heart when that time comes. ) That's what i love most with filipino traditions, there is enough time to be together and bonded the family ties even more. That theory makes me and the husband happy and will have a room for us to accept until the time they do a life of their own. Nevertheless, love that i can see the glow in their eyes, the happiness and excitement whenever we talk and plan on things. Still.

I do love little get aways and cherish them in our memory box but i think the routine in our day to day is more important part. I still remember when i was young, cleaning the dishes while humming or singing is my favorite thing to do. Aside from playing in our yard, catching dragon flies or even picking camias fruits while my mommy is clearing the weeds, watering the plants or hanging fresh laundry clothes. Even going to the wet market early in the morning while goods are still fresh delivered by the farmer is my favorite thing to do. After then my papa and I will cook together if he is home. I appreciate whenever we have time spend together, and maybe the reason why cooking is not a chore or task for me at all. It also broadened my vocabulary that cooking is a definition of love made from scratch. A beautiful nostalgic memories flashing back on me each time. That's a part of my sweetest memories growing up and i noticed that a big part of my routine today covers all that. I really love the art of slow living, maybe that's the influence of the countryside where i live in growing up, aside from the people around me then that i will forever cherish and love.

Early summer i let Iya plant the seeds. We replenish some packet and added some too in between. I am excited that we can able to add a little vegetables in our yard. Even though our garden spot is small, i love the idea that we can able to plant other vegetables aside from herbs and tomatoes. There's nothing better than able to eat fresh produce coming from your own garden, right? And also, picking time is always a favorite thing to do. Though we start small, we are looking forward to experience a good harvest but if not, the experience itself makes our summer time so worth it. But if lucky enough i can let Iya harvest fresh produce direct from the garden aside from cherry tomatoes, her favorite.

So day by day i love the idea of visiting our plants. It makes me giddy every time and burst my heart in  joy seeing flower buds and sprouting seeds. The chirping of the birds while having my cup of coffee in the morning is like a sanctuary to my ears. It always reminds me of the time i visited the church. How rad to think that birds also like yards and churches. Maybe they do reflect and pray too like us.

Nowadays i can say that i am a lady,  physical changes happens on me day by day i think. Like a transition of leaves. Gosh! But i am ready and accepted that fact that it will happen one day, and that day comes. But, i appreciate and love where i am at right now at this point of my life. Looking back 25 years ago or so, just thinking about what i wanted then in life. And today, i can say that i am living on it. I remember then that i did not dream of being rich but just to have a complete and happy family. Just like career, it put a lot of hard work, passion, dedication, love and perseverance to achieve it. Whatever you want in life started with a dream, right? Then to set a goal is important to achieve it. Struggles, pains, and happiness come and go, and the biggest weapon above all is faith to overcome all to find joy. It's the only one that can give you real peace of mind that you can't buy, even how rich and famous you are. 

Have a meaningful week to all.

Till then.

Saturday, April 8, 2017


For now let's talk about skincare. This maybe one topic that I would not mind talking over and over. I have been a fan of Korea novelas since Jewel in the Palace days more than a decade ago now. Are you? Since then I started to noticed how beautiful their skin were and already became a fan. From then on I've started to research, tried and patronize their skincare line who's result doesn't disappoint over time.

If there is a specific area that I've been linient to take care of over the years is the eye area. This is where aging first shows, right? Like fine to deep lines, under eye bags and circles and forget not to mention crows feet in the future. Sometimes taking care of the skin focus on the face and ignore the eyes. These two should go hand in hand if you want to see ultimate young looking result, the most in the future.

Last year, I was looking for a new intensive eye cream line to try, I've picked up the  Laneige Perfect Renew Eye Cream, an Amore Pacific brand from Korea known for producing luxury skincare line. At 40 applying eye cream become a part of a routine but as you age, there is a right skincare to correctly combat your concern. There's a different eye cream for one specific needs and my concern now is to prevent my upper eye lid from drooping, to firm up and plump the area. Under eye bags and circles is a minor concern for me and thankful for a slice of cold cucumber that's been a therapy at night if i want a soothing relief, best to do before bedtime.

Now back to Perfect Renew Eye Cream, this is my second pot from Laneige. Though the packaging now is different from my last purchase but the result is just the same for me. Packaging wise, the color is cool and pretty that felt like I stepped into the sea for it's deep turquoise blue color. Maybe the concept derives from the ingredients which is the marine algae and ceramide. After I emptied the first pot, been more curious to try skincare line with marine ingredients and see if the result is different or would just be the same. Added that I am pleased with the new packaging since the pot is easier to open now not like before that my excitement fade off due to it's hard lid opening.

Comparison of the old ( bottom ) and new packaging

Due to warm tropical climate where I live in i love products that have a gel type finish. With this one, at first it's like a cream but when applied, it looks like a gel, easily to blend and immediately absorb by the skin so applying eye make up would not be a problem at all. It has a very light scent that can be considered none if you are use to heavy scented products. This is a big factor for those who have sensitive skin and can't stand strong smell like I do. Over all I love how it hydrates, firms, plumps and lighten the lines and show visible results in just five days base on my usage. And also felt like I have a good night sleep when I wake up in the morning. I consider this as a luxury beauty due to it's price range and base on my budget but the result is totally worth the splurge.

The pot contain 20 ml and price as php 2,450 ($ 45-50). A bit pricey but the 5 ml is a bonus considering eye cream usually size up as 15 ml only.  It lasted about five months on me applied twice a day, morning and at night and good for all skin types. I can say it's highly recommended and a must have! Most especially if you are looking for a skincare product with an immediate results. Did you ever tried this product? What's your thought about it?

I bought mine in Laneige local store and you can get yours here  in the US.

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